July 23, 2002 - 3.14 am
OK, so it's 3.14 in the morning, and I'm still awake. Dude. I've got to get up at 8 and take my roommate to work. I tried to go to bed three hours ago and I dozed for a little while and then was suddenly jerked into hyper-awareness, and I cannot fall back asleep. Just now, my eyes are starting to feel a little scratchy.
I know why.
Before I went to bed, I decided to check the messages one final time, because I was expecting S's sister, EC to call. I called EC's work today and begged her boss to give her Friday off. I told her boss that EC didn't know that I was calling, and that she didn't get a chance to celebrate her birthday three weeks ago, and we were having a party and could she give EC the day off. The boss said there wasn't any possible way, and I said, OK, well thanks you for your time. But apparently, the boss called S's cell phone later and told her that she COULD in fact give EC the day off. S told the boss that she should probably call EC and ask her first. So I was all excited, right, thinking YAY! EC can come! We can all have our birthday together! And then, tonight, I'm on-line, getting off every now and again to check the messages to see if EC has called, but her message didn't come through until I was checking them one final time before I tried to go to bed at 12. And so I obviously can't call her back until tomorrow, but I feel really horrible about this. I didn't think that it would make her angry. Looking back I can understand that it wasn't my place and I should've just kept my big mouth shut. I do this all too often. Don't think before I act. Put my nose where it doesn't belong. I really really hope I'm mis-interpreting her voice tone, but my insides are all leaden-feeling and I can't sleep.
In other news, have I mentioned lately how much I really adore my pal, Riley? He sent me an e-mail after reading my last entry that made me feel so much better. He has this wonderful way of knowing what I need to hear, and saying it in such a real, heartfelt way. Sometimes we mere mortals are blessed with angels in our lives.
(That and he called me baby. You want something from me, and you're male, baby is the way to get it. I melt.)
I've been downloading the Life as a House version of Both Sides Now by Joni Mitchell, and loving it.
So this is a random entry, hoping that once I get this off my chest, I can finally get some sleep.
