October 14, 2002 - 12.23 am
I tried to archive some entries earlier, because my "older" page only has up until like, July 16th or something, and it's kind of driving me batty. I tried to fix it, but HTML makes me want to cry. I would totally love to have a beautiful site, I sometimes think that having a non-diaryland preformated site would help people take me a little bit more seriously. But, as I mentioned, HTML makes me want to cry. :)
People taking me seriously seems to be a big issue for me lately. I'm having a hard time with my roommate, S, because I feel like she really doesn't take me seriously. She is always giving me a hard time about something lately. No one thing in particular, just, like, the dishes, or classes, or how I never do homework, (I do, btw, just not much at home when she is. Its a seperation of spaces issue.) It seems like she can'tjust leave me to live my life. I mean, I appriciate her concern, but I'm 20. I've been fairly successful in college thus far, and I get to be my own boss. Her "gentle" ribbing has me doubting everything and feeling like a real joke. Like I'm less of a person because I'm kind of messy and sometimes forget to put the milk away or don't do laundry every weekend. Like I'm less of a person because I don't do homework at home much.
And I'm having an additional issue, because I'm feeling like a lot of my entries are a tad angst ridden and mopey. While most of the time I don't feel angst ridden and mopey, that's probably when I write the most. So people who read me here probably have a completley different idea of who I am than people who know me "in real life." What an odd medium this internet thing.
I'm going to bed now.
