November 17th, 2002 - 12.50 am
Yesterday was one of the most perfect days I've ever expereienced. Maybe, better yet, this weekend were some of the most perfect moments that I've expereienced.
Friday, I saw The Laramie Project at this bitty theatre waaaay off of the beaten path in Denver, the Theatre on Broadway it was called. Anyway, this production made me rethink all of my pre-held notions about the show. This time it just hit me, hit me hard. I mean, I loved it. I think this production heald a lot more thought and sensitivity than the other one I saw did. I also think it was rougher, not quite so polished and that endeared it to me, because the whole damn thing is so gritty. To enjoy the play you have to get your hands dirty, you have to get involved, and I think this production really let me do that. Also, I went with Laine, and another friend of ours from Humanities Club, Cate. Laine, Cate and I have done some things together before and I think it's just a really fun grouping of people.
The next morning, Laine and I got up to go to Denver to judge a speech meet, and that was OK. I mean, whatever, I dragged my sorry ass out of bed (and new jammies!) at 5.30 in the morning and that sucked, but I did make some muchly needed money. and I saw this guy I used to know in Forensics, and I'd forgotten how attractive he is. Shivers, attractive. Mmmm. Whoops! Sorry. Done now. :)
After the meet, Laine and I got into a little tiff driving back. It was only a little one, but I'm proud of myself because recently, I've been allowing myself to not be afraid of confrontation. I let myself get a little irrked at Laine and I didn't think that this one little fight would be the end of our friendship. This is a HUGE step for me, you know? Because man. I avoid confrontation and telling people how I really feel or think because I worry they won't like me anymore. I'm getting better slowly. And with Laine, I don't have to worry about that.
So anyway, Saturday was the last CU home game and it was going to be a party! Laine and her roomie, Kim came and sat with me, my dad, my mom, my sister, Ab, our friends, Ken and Paisely, my mom's best friend from college Allie, and her husband and good buddy of my dad's Ferd, and my uncle Curtis. And that game was one of the best times I've ever had in my entire life. Having Kim and Laine there was great, having all my family, and my parents friends which are practically extended family, was awesome, and I just felt so good about the world and my place in it. It was a perfect fall night, chilly and clear, and I was surrounded by people that I love, and my football team won, what more does a girl want?! It was another one of those moments where the whole time, the Edwin McCain song was running through my head "These are the moments/I thank God that I'm alive/these are the moments/I'll remember all my life." And it's so true. I'll remember that game and that night for the rest of my life.
Then today, I was on call for the hotline, got a couple calls, handled them well, I think. Spend the day hanging around the house in my jammies, in bed reading, watching Disney movies, then at 6.00 I had a MESA supergroup meeting. Supergroups are our little groups that we are put into where we can talk about calls, and process them and get support and that was awesome. I think I'm making friends with these people that I can honestly be friends with for a long time. It's so much fun to talk with these people who are like me, who have similar and dissimilar interests but who are open minded and funny and intellegent. It was great.
And now, I'm going to bed, humming "Right there in that moment/that is where I'm meant to be/" and thanking The Powers that Be for these few beautiful, whole, shining moments in life.
Sleep tight,
Emily
